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Thursday, October 29, 2009

LOST!!!!

can sumbody tell me who i m....

this is the worse decision i have to make in my life now...

to continue or to stop n change the dream of my parent that i try to pursue...

i know i have disappointed a lot of people surrounding me especially my mom n dad..

i know i have disappointed my sister...

i know i have disappointed all my BFF...u know who u are,n i want u to know tat i love u all so much!!!!Xox0

i need a break for myself now n think real deep on wat i m doing...
maybe,business is not my stuff...
but,i TRIED...
my father has been giving me chances one after another..
i know he wanted me to finish my foundation badly..
he didn't tell,but i know he is...

i just cant take things for granted anymore...
i take everything in my life easily...
everything...everything is easy to me..
it seem to be tat i own the world..

i just cant afford to see the tears on my mom cheek anymore...
n i know i hurt her so much..
m so sorry my mom...

i just cant afford to see the cool expression of my dad that he seem to be hiding his sadness n i know i have disappointed him one after another...
m so sorry my dad...

my tears fall n my heart hurt real bad when i type this n i know the pain that my mom withstand is 1o time greater than mine...

m so SORRY.....
m so speechless...
m so lost...

i just wanna go home....

signing off with TEARS..........................


1 comment:

  1. dear cousin....
    u shud take a break....
    try to do some soul searching and calm urself down....
    i know it is hard to realise how much v have hurt our parents when we do not intend to....
    i know it is hard to see them hurt and nvr show their sadness towards us....
    this is the time to be alone and do some meditation and soul searching.....
    i pray that you come to realise your true potential and purpose....
    i pray you all the happiness in the world.....
    i pray that you will be who you are cut out to be....
    i pray that you remain true to yourself and be ARDI always...

    hugs and kisses...
    ur cousin....

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